Saturday, April 30, 2011

First the Wind, then Taos

Last night I had quite an interesting adventure. It all started when I was walking outside around nine o'clock PM. I felt a wind rush up to greet me.
In the past year, I have learned how to become friends with the winds of the world. Each wind is different in feel and nature (temperment). To become friends with a wind, you must sing your song to them. This does not mean you actually sing, but you could if you wanted to. Your song is the your truth - what lies in your heart. To sing your song, you must open your heart to the wind and let your truth sing forth. opening your heart allows the love to flow forth from your center - you must direct that love to the wind (just a thought of good will like - love you, Mr. wind). Then you must wait for the wind to come to you.
You will know this because it will seem that the wind is encircling you - touching you from one direction and then turning around and reversing direction (hey, winds aren't supposed to do that you might say but hey winds are not supposed to be living beings too - yet in the Shaman's world they can and are).
This wind told me its name and told me a message which I did not realize till later.
Later, I used some energy healing on my partner and suddenly I felt as if something within me was turned on or ignited. I felt full of energy and I was able to focus on sending energy healing long distance and then I was able to focus on seeking a compadre in the spiritual healing world.
I was able to locate him and then he started to give me directions to where he was located. He also said that when I get there he will know it so he will find me. (all this happened on the spiritual plane, mind you, words are not needed but sometimes it feels as if we are talking.)
I could have stayed up all night but at about 4 AM I recieved a sign that it was time for me to stop and sleep.
Then I had a dream in which there were two spiritual people and I had to choose which one to be with. All in all it was an interesting night.

Friday, April 29, 2011

What happened ?

Yesterday, I was geeked about discovering a facet of who I really am. But today, I was very down, I could not see the light at the end of tunnel. I saw things in tones of only dark.Even when I was busy, I was still down. My niece bought me a gift and I could barely say thank you.

One explanation, I have for this is related to the books of Carlos Castenda. He claimed that humans are in reality balls (egg shaped) of light. he claimed that there was an area on the surface of the ball that interpreted the incoming energy and translated it into the world we see around us. He called this area your 'assemblage point' (the point where the world is assembled). He claimed that if the point moved, one would experience a different world depending which way it moved and how much it moved. He said that a blow to the head might move the assemblage point so that one might see 'stars'.
Well, getting back to me, I might have experienced just that - a move of the assemblage point to the point of no joy. However, I did it - there is one thing I want to say - I don't want to go back there again. Yuck.

Another explanation is a scarier one. There are 'things' in this world which we cannot see but which feed off our bad moods, literally on our negative emotions such as fear. One of those beings could have been feeding off me but I do not think so. My choice right now is the first explanation.

One other thing - somehow I knew my mood was temporary. I kept telling people who were listening to me bitch - to not take my seriously - it is my time of the month, I joked but I did not laugh. I hope no other woman or man has periods like I had today.

Tonight, I will try to create a dream, both in this world and in dreamtime.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

In Honor of My New Found Self

Today, I found myself giving advice about writing poetry. One of the questions, I asked was a question I needed to answer myself:

What are you trying to say?
Do you have the right words to say what you mean ?

Okay, that is two questions. But it is a good illustration of how the words used in a writing work can defeat the message trying to be sent.
What I really want to say is this:
In the course of my helping someone get their message across, I came upon myself - a piece of my spirit.
I want to show people how to empower themselves through self-discovery by using the only model I have - myself.
This blog will be my daily journey into the world of spirit, my soul, and how all that relates to the physical world. I feel as if I am shedding my chrysalis - I feel as if I am ready to fly.
Hope your days are as full of life as you can handle,