Wednesday, May 4, 2011

I have Opened myself up to ME

I wake and greet the dawn with open arms. I open my heart and I let myself glow - emitting my light to the universe. I am loving the essence that is me - I am making my heart's desire manifest.
My prayer comes forth from my heart onto the universe - I am thankful to be a part of all the blooming of hearts that I see. There is great things happening now here in earth and I am in the middle of it all because my heart is open and I am accepting of my own essence, of who I truly am.
This is my prayer to God and to the earth and to all my fellow being here in both body and spirit. We are the New Age - we are the one who will lead the way. We will show our good will and cooperation and there will be abundance in all we do. I now declare this the first day of the new religion - a religion without rules except for one - Love all. We strive to open out hearts and to make this day and all days beautiful.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

A Deep Sense of Loss

Today I feel a deep sense of loss. I feel that I am at a place where I do not want to be. I am at a place where there is very little support and I feel that I need to ask for help to the heavens above because I do not seems to make things happen right now.
My feeling sets in as I made myself go crazy today and I yelled and screamed. There was a lot nothing going on in my heart and I realized that I am not home - that I truly have no home and that I will have to make a home for myself - I wonder if I can do that. I wonder if there is a place for me anymore in this world.
I do not seem to be saying anything that is from the heart - I am going through the motions and I wonder why I am low in energy. I used to think that people would listen but I used to think that I had something to say. Now I do not know.
I feel deep in my heart and I know that I would love to be with people who love living and did not have so many problems. Or with people who wanted to get better. I thought that I was one of those people but now I am not sure. I have been looking at myself with a sense reflection - the world mirrors me - what does my world look like.
Some people smile and some people do not until they know me.I guess that I have to get myself out there more. I guess I have to try better. I guess I have to find a magazine and to publish my poetry. That is where I will start.

Monday, May 2, 2011


Today I am making a concerted effort to connect with more like minded people. I posted a note on facebook about spirituality and I reacheds out to a person who has found my poetry website. I want to put the creative spark out there - to see what people will come up with. I want my light to be found but I also wish to find the light of others. This is the key I feel to my growth and progression as a spiritual being. Reaching out and making our light and voices heard.
Last night, I felt quite peaceful and powerful. This lead to a dream in which I befriended a guy and we tried to race with another set of guys - they caught me and then I woke up. I was happy to have met him. So I am bridging that dream segment by reaching out to others.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Forcing It - the opposite of Let it be

Spirit like any other entity does not like to be forced. We cannot schedule how the world of spirit descends upon our world. It just happens. Nor can we force through mantras, yoga breaths, or prayers, Spirit to appear. When you are ready the lesson is presented by the Guru.
You would think that I know all these things, I do. You would think that I would not try to force Spirit to come to me, but I did. As long ago as last night.
The temptation after having been visited by Spirit is to think that you are something special - I did. The truth is that we all are something special - so there is no spiritual elite-ness associated with a visit from Spirit. There is only the lesson/message that Spirit gives you.
Last night, I had been hoping to duplicate the visit I had from Spirit the previous night - what I got instead was a different message - Let It Be.
I was hoping for some clarification of my message - what I got was another message - take some time and see what happens then ask for help. So I am Letting it Be - for now.
I am always hoping for more from Spirit but now I am chilling. (for now).